A “Baked” Canadian Mom

Hey all, I’m a Canadian mom of two daughters aged 12 and 14. My hubby works for a fly in fly out operation where he is typically away for 21 to 23 days and home for 8. It is not a way of life for everyone but it works for us. My husband says he likes it much better lately – but that is due to the fact both girls have hit puberty. 

I started using marijuana when I was 34 because of the progression of my migraines. It is a bit of a story which I will tell in the time ahead but I will sum it up quickly.

Marijuana changed how I live my life – as a mom, as a business woman, a wife, as a patient of migraines and depression, as a person – for the better. Even though there were and are down times. I’m proud I use weed. 
With my stories I hope to share a few of my experiences, helping you learn more about marijuana as we get closer to legislation. In no way am I an expert – but I do my best to be well educated on the easiest, safest and funnest ways to buy, smoke and bake with marijuana in a house with two teenage daughters.

Curious? Follow along, ask questions and share your thoughts. Conversation and weed are always great together!!



So pretty much every morning I wake with a demon sitting on my shoulder. Some days she is constant and annoying, others she is a faint hum in the background that I catch every so often, and occasionally she is intently pounding on me, wanting my full attention. I’ve lived with this demon since university, and so far she has convinced me to attempt suicide twice, ensures that I am medicated with anti-depressants and requires me to sit down regularly with great therapists. I follow all my doctors and therapists prescribed orders and try hard to be successful in completing them, yet I can’t get rid of this demon. Then this year I read a great book called “Furiously Happy” by Jenny Lawson and she told me the demon never leaves – she will always be there. Meaning there is no cure for this disease – you can manage the symptoms – but their is no cure. 

Uhh…🙄. Even though I’ve had depression for almost 20 years I’ve always assumed “It” was something I could get over and that I wasn’t getting better because of my failings. Failing to get over depression alway scared me because I knew my inability to getter better was affecting not only me and that guilt gave the demon more control. Everyday, I fight it as hard as I can, feeling like I am dodging punches daily from the demon, yet taking a beating that makes it harder not to stay down, a little longer, each time I fall.  The ability to find energy to get back up is key because staying down means fight over. If there is no cure that means I will always have a demon to battle. 

As I battle in my mind, I am still a physical presence here on this earth and my most important cap🧢 I wear right now is that of mom. To me, being a good mom means I am active and present with my children and not lying on the bed, non-communicative, with thoughts of self-harm, and selfishness racing through my brain, causing panic and anxiety. Symptoms of my disease.  

“There is no cure. I have to do something more to treat the symptoms if I will forever be in battle because what I am doing now isn’t enough.”

I started consuming marijuana because of debilitating migraines that would come on so suddenly and violently that I was no longer able to drive with my children any great distance alone. Marijuana worked wonders for treating and preventing my migraines and knowing I need to do something else to help me with my battle against depression I started looking closer at the marijuana I order to treat my migraines. Are there strains that can effectively treat my depression symptoms along with my migraines and not carry side effects of anxiety and panic? There were quiet a few options, so over the last six months I made changes to my strain selections and started actively treating my depression with weed. Well, what a difference!!

Weed doesn’t cure depression. What it does do is help you get up and move, making it easier to do all the other things you know you need to do in your battle 🥊 🥊 against the disease. Moving is one of the biggest challenges when your demon is beating on you relentlessly. Getting outside in nature, exercising, being with your family are so important on these days – I know this, every depressed person who seeks treatment for their disease knows this. I have it written down in my journal, on sticky notes placed in strategic locations throughout the house yet on many days I still can’t move. The stains I selected help give me that push to get up and go, lift my mood, enabling me to put energy behind my knowledge of what I need to do when my symptoms are bad. After battling for years, slowly and steadily losing ground, changing my marijuana strains to actively treat my depression has shifted the energy in my battle and made a noticeably positive difference in my daily life!! 🌞🦋

Once MJ becomes legal in Canada, consider looking into treating the symptoms of your depression with marijuana. There are lots of apps like Leafy that can help you understand all the different strains soon to be offered legally to you. Marijuana might be the right element to add to your treatment of your disease as well.  

If you have any questions I can offer you stories on my experiences and you can take from them what you will. 

Note: Salem deCat is my daughter’s son (she doesn’t like the word pet), not a demon.  I needed a picture for the post and sometimes he acts like a fun demon. He is truly a wonderful cat and very entertaining to watch. 

Somedays are just F-ing Hard. 

Routine is important to me. My personality is such that I bounce from one thing to another, work on it for a while then bounce to something different. My perception for years was that multitasking is a good thing but as learned more about what makes me happy I discovered I am not a mutlitasker. If I try to be I just don’t get shit done. So my morning routine is sacred. I wake up, put on my water for tea, brush my teeth, drop the tea bags in, take Sunshine outside, come back in, pour the tea then head to my sunroom and turn on my old school deluxe daddy and get a bowl ready. Yep, I start every morning with weed. 

My morning routine came about naturally because I have migraines. I am a teeth grinder (I regularly visit a TMJ doctor so I have the bite plate, tried the massages (which I hated – I do not like people touching my face), never chew gum or subpar streak (only the expensive cuts for me) and never sleep on my jaw. Even with all that every morning I wake with a headache. I still do. Migraines are terrible to me they are debilitating   and getting a headache hardly ever stays as just a headache. So medicating with marijuana in the morning was a no brainer. For me THC and CBD are equally important to me. THC allows all the tension to drain completely out of my jaw – I need that bit of “Buzz” for that to happen. Once my jaw and muscles in my head start to release then the CBD does its job and takes away my headache. All before my two cups of tea are finished. Thank God for weed is all I can say. 

Before I added weed to my routine my day went like this – wake with headache, delay in bed as long as able then get girls up. One daughter is a morning person, the other has PJs that say “Bear in the morning”. So of course there would be a fight at some point in time. I still have my headache, I yell, they yell, then we are all late and the girls miss their bus or one of them is crying. Get f-ing start to the day. Almost everyday. It was hell. 

Now I’m up an hour before the girls, I do my routine and get them up gently one at a time. I’m happy and pain free so I can focus entirely on them and divert any teenage sister agnst as it arises. No more tears, no more missed buses and happy kids going to school.  Yep – mornings are pretty awesome most days in my house. Thank you weed. Both you and my family appreciate you very much. 

Tip for a BAKED MOMWeed can be the perfect way to start your day. Weed is not alcohol – nothing at all like it. There is no 5 o’clock somewhere rule. 

Weed is medication: whether it is to treat headaches or used to help create happy, stressfree mornings  – use at the time of day best for you and your life. 

The last three mornings have been really nice for me as I tried a new strain, Greasy Pink Buddha from a new dispensary, MMJDirect.ca

I really like it and I really liked how quickly everything arrived (3 days from one side of the country to the other). If you have worries that your mail lady will know you get weed, don’t. There is no smell, no branding, no store name listed. There never is. I bought something else but that is another post. 

‘Greasy’ Pink Bubba  (don’t you love pot names, they are never boring) is mostly an indica (more relaxing) strain – and I typically don’t like an indica in the am but this one was different. I felt relaxed, positive and productive while using it. It was easy to get up and moving – checking one thing off after another on my goals for the day and I enjoyed all tasks. Not all strains can do that. A word of warning however. This is not a beginner weed. I’ve use weed daily for years and this made me feel high – no small feet as I rarely feel “stoned” or “high” even with high THC numbers – but I did with ‘Greasy’ Pink Bubba. So unless you are experienced put this one on a list to try someday – otherwise it will likely be too much for you. Not knowing what strain you are receiving and not reading reviews or getting advice from a budtender are the main reasons people have a negative experience with weed. You can’t just buy whatever – read reviews – go to Leafy – then choose. There is no shortage of info available.  

Anyway I’ll be ordering from MMJDIRECT.ca again. They have a great product, are quick and they have good, comparable prices. Can’t ask for more than that. 

Have a great day everyone, 


How aggressive is a beaver? 

For most people new to marijuana their biggest question is “Where to start and how do I get it?”   

I was lucky – my first experience with weed was easy. At the start of a family vacation visiting my younger sister in Rossland, BC, I took yet another migraine (a common occurrance after flying. Smart baby sister she is, Lindsey gave me a joint and my world was changed – a typical three day migraine was brought low with a few puffs. When I returned to Nova Scotia a friend of mine hooked me up with weed from his supplier. It took me a while before I had enough courage to ask my doctor for a prescription. This happened 5 years ago and Doc was hesitant to provide it, even though he was intrigued by my PAX Vaporizer he didn’t feel nativagting all the paperwork (5 years there was a lot of it) was worth it for me. He was encouraging though and told me to feel comfortable using it and not to worry, the police were not looking for a mom suffering from migraines to charge. It took me another 3 years before I’d ask him again and in the meantime I obtained my weed from unregulated local suppliers and through the mail in tuna cans (yes sealed tuna cans). I had great experiences and not so great. After a not great experience I went back to my doctor and told him I wasn’t comfortable receiving my weed without knowing what I was getting and where it was grown. I wanted to be safe. He agreed this time for the prescription – only one piece of paper to fill out and fax in. Two days later I could order. 

When looking at dispensaries you should choose one that has lots of info on its products and suppliers. Not all dispensaries are created equal and for me I look for organic products and that the dispensary has a strong listing on Leafy (best marijuana website/app out there in my opinion).

Advice for BAKED Moms: Only choose to use a dispensary that has info on its suppliers and can provide results from a variety of different tests.  

If you are interested is what the tests mean Google will help you. For now though the potency test is the one that should interest you the most. It is pretty straight forward. The higher the number the greater the potency. This test will list the potency of THC (what is responsible for making your body or head feel tingly) and the CBD (the compound that helps with medicial conditions like epilepsy, fibromyalgia, PTSD, insomnia, etc.). 

Because legalization is so close in Canada there are a number of different options available for buy marijuana. One is to go to your doctor with a printed form from the dispensary of your choice and ask for the doctor to fax it in for you. If the doctor hesitates I’d explain you are looking for a regulated, safe supply for product and you want use this dispensary because it established and lots of information on strains, suppliers and different methods of consumption. 

If you choose to go the doctor route all medical dispensaries should have a medical form for you to print off on their website. Take it to your doctor and have them fill it out and fax it to the dispensary (fax must come from the doc’s office). Once the dispensary receives the fax you are good to go. I get the majority of my product from MMJ Total Health Care in Vernon, BC. They have a large variety of products (bud, wax, and tinctures are my fave) with great budtenders and a beautiful storefront (my sister and I visited them the last time I went to BC) and clear website. The staff are super friendly and professional and the website is very easy to navigate. I place all my orders on-line and they arrive to me in a plain white small shipping box. Oh and the best part – they have frequent sales!!! I love a good sale 💚.

Pictures of a beaver dam and den Sunshine and I discovered on our hike today. Marijuana and hiking go great together!! 

When you are ordering for the first time reach out to the staff for advice. It is so easy to “talk” to people through email, website chats or by calling them. A strong dispensary will have staff with hundreds of hours of training – so they know their stuff.  Don’t be shy – let them know this is all new to you. They will then take over, asking you a bunch of questions that will help them advise you on the best method and strain for you. Questions are about what you want to treat or experience (relaxation, motivation, more engery, increased sex drive, headaches, epilepsy, etc), how discreet you want to be, and how you want consume or use it. Marijuana people – Budtenders 😄 are always excited to introduce weed to new people. 

Another great option is go to a website like BoutiqueCannabis.ca, farmacydispensary.com or MMJDirect.ca (I’m Canadian so only have experience in Canada).  I’m just in the process of signing up with these guys and after trying them out I’ll give a review on what I like. I’m excited about both as they have tons of variety with many herb, waxes, edibles, topicals, pills… pretty much whatever you could want and it is easy to find info on their suppliers.  

The ease of ordering makes me concerned as a Mom. Not for my own kids so much, but all for the kids who believe weed is cool and okay to use as a teen. The proposed legal age for using marijuana in Canada is 18. Too young in my opinion for brains that are still actively developing. My daughters understand the positive points of marijuana and also the negative. The also know my one rule: 

🎶 No weed before 23 🎶

If you live in an urban setting there are independent consultants you can contact to help you navigate the paperwork, the industry, the dispensaries and the scene (there are lots of fun activities to try like yoga, painting) in your city or town. They will take you through the first steps and teach you as you move along. I far from an urban centre but am sure if this option had been available to me I’d probably use it. 

Someone thinks she is a beaver. She isn’t – labradoodle she is. 

Vaping Chemdawq Sour Diesel Hybrid Veganic from MMJ Total Health Care on my desk top Deluxe Daddy. I haven’t used this strain a lot but it was great on my hike with Sunshine although I did get a bit anxious when we discovered the beaver dam and den. I’ve hiked along for years in the mountains in Cape Breton and rarely worry about wildlife. But I found myself wondering how aggressive and territorial are beavers? I am prone to anxiousness and for some, Chemdawg sour disel brings that out. I’m guessing it did for me today as I was worried my ankles would be knawed on by furious beavers. 

I have a book where I keep notes on the stains and wrote the experience down. Using a THC dominate strain before hiking is a standard for me since weed makes me so much more aware and opened to nature. In fact exercise and weed are an amazing combo. One of the first things you should try!! 

Hope you have an amazing day. 🌻 

I’ll leave you a something my great friend Rachel says often  – “Whatever you do today,  be sure to lead with love.”


A Baked Canadian Mom 

A walk in the summer rain. 

Ideas, ideas…..ideas? 
Where to start? I’ve never written a blog before or really anything beyond highschool except for retail ads so yesterday I started thinking about ideas and I had tons! I went to bed excited about them and the fact that I had a plan (I’m always working on my organization skills but I still really suck at it). But right now I can’t think of a single one of those ideas, nor can I push through the fog surrounding the ideas.  

The thing with consuming weed you can be so much more creative in your thoughts and ideas because different strains are designed to send your mind towards thoughts you would normally be closed off from. Most of my best ideas come from when I’m consuming marijuana designed to tap into ones creativity. Yet if I don’t write them down I will likely not have the ability to recall them once I try to. 

Weed makes you forgetful!!! Your memory will suffer so you need to make adjustments so your forgetfulness does not cause you to loose those ideas or negatively effect your life because you forgot about the phone call telling you about the birthday on Saturday for your daughter’s friend. 

So – first rule for a BAKED mom – 


Not your phone or computer – weed is so much better when you get away from tech. The most boring thing I could do when using weed is be on my phone. 

I love a good sharp pencil and a journal filled with smooth quality paper. Often I find myself not only writing notes but also trying out hand lettering, or sketching (really doodling) or even writing poems. 

So if you are new to weed – search your place out for that nice journal you received as a gift and pick out a few different types of pencils (not all pencils are created equal) and get prepared for your first session with the green leaf. 

Today I spent the morning vaping “The Black” RHO in my KangerTech Evod with my notebook by my side, (my ideas came back to me) then took a walk in the warm summer rain with my pup Sunshine beside me. When was the last time you walked in the warm August rain? Been a while? Well there is no time like the present. 

Sunshine and I enjoying the summer rain in Grandma’s field. A beautiful Cape Breton glen.